Sunday, June 8, 2014

A Heavy and Light Heart




Eight weeks have passed since my last post and these days have held more than I thought they ever could. The hubby and I traveled to Las Vegas and back (more on this in the near future), we lost a friend, I turned another year older and we bought a house...

This is certainly a season of loss for us - three funerals within a year. A good friend passed away recently, it was sudden and I am so very sorry for it.  He was the type of guy you only met a few times before you referred to him as a good friend - a way in which I hope to live my own life.

My heart has felt so heavy and my mortality has felt so real - some days I've felt pulled inside out  and right back again. At times, I've needed to go a bit slower so I do.

Endings and beginnings, these have composed my days. My heart has also felt impossibly light but I guess this is the way of things. I am aware of the difficult times and do not ignore them however I also realize that my well being increases exponentially as I notice the goodness and love within my life. So, today my response is gratitude and the same is for tomorrow and the next day and the next.

I have felt grateful for: 
That Happy song / Rain / My mobility and independence
Nice strangers who offer advice on strange noises coming from my car
Shanti music / Gingerade Kombucha / A super blue and comfy shirt / Yoga
Meditation and the Meditation iphone app / Sunshine days / Wawa Iced Coffee
Finding a new and really good story telling podcast / Water / Air conditioning 
New opportunities / Getting the house for the price/ Yoga pants
My friends and family's love, support, tools, time, focus and muscle

And most importantly, I am grateful for this moment because its one more than some receive.

I hope today is a good one for you,
Kaylin

4 comments:

Denise said...

Beautiful writing. You are an inspiration to me.

Kaylin Lydia said...

Denise, thank you for the kind words - it is always appreciated.

jean said...

I always enjoy your posts and pictures! And I am so sorry about the loss of your friend.

Kaylin Lydia said...

Jean, thank you for continuing to follow along and posting such kind words! It means the world to me.